A Song of Solomon
You said you are filled with so much anger
I imagined what it would be like to be with you without that anger
To be without that in me that is scared of that anger, that hides from it, looks away
Refuses to acknowledge it and my response to it
And as I imagined this tears came to my eyes and a smile softened my face
And I asked myself
What if?
What if it were possible for me to live without this reaction?
What would that be like?
How would my life be different without that reaction?
I lost myself in that question, and rested in it, the question having led me to that imperturbable place behind the mind where time stops and flow begins . . .
And as I asked this question of “what if” in this way the healing began,
I could feel the shift happening
For with the shift I began to be filled with love instead
Being healed from whatever I was doing, my role in perpetuating your anger,
And hope began to dawn and fill my day with light.
Yes! You are beautiful, and precious and worthy of all the good things that life has to offer!
And so our journeys are intertwined – your journey becomes my journey
As I see that how I perceive you, or what I perceive in you predicts or even defines
The tone and quality of each interaction
Each opportunity to feel and show my love for you
To call forth my true nature from self-imposed exile
To incarnate in my life the image of myself living in this way
As I imagine how this way of living would feel
To see you exactly as you are
Everything about you
Without feeling any need for you to be different
Because your true nature is that of love and goodness / splendour
And by looking at your true nature
Through this change it brings in me
I become more loving
And any negative feelings and life stealing reactions
Of disapproval and resistance subside and fade
As I imagine how my life would be different without that in me.
And I feel the glow of that new way of being permeate every cell of my body
So rejoice with me for we are one
Let us open our hearts to let love burst forth
Emerging from the hidden depths inside us
This place unknown even to ourselves
Imagining looking deeply into it,
Into the well of our own beauty
And seeing deeper and deeper
To the very bottom
And then farther still
To past the dark layer and passing through that until there is only love
An ocean of love connecting all things
And each and every one of us
Oh! How it feels to see this love and be connected to it
Oh how that is all there is!
Blessings be upon you, today and always
World without end
Amen
September 26, 2016
Teachings
There is power in a teaching, a teaching that can move the Soul, draw one outside of their way of thinking or seeing the world; there are thoughts that can lead one to inside themselves where true knowledge resides, where love reigns eternal, where life is sweet, where the precious beauty of the flower of the Soul blossoms and fills us with joy and wonder. A teaching can do all those things, for it is an arrow pointing to what is there for you to see, waiting for you to look inside and behold it. Neither the teaching nor the teacher are to be worshiped or seen as the way, lest they become the focus and the way be hidden or lost from view. Seek not the teaching nor the teacher. There are many teachers and many teachings. You will know the fruit of the teaching by its taste and whether it leads you inside towards others, or if it leads you to the teacher or teaching itself as the source of life or truth or love and acceptance. The teacher and the teaching are only sign posts showing a path on your journey inward into the world, to the place behind the mind, where the infinite power of love reigns eternal, where there are no limitations, where your life becomes a blessing, to yourself and to the world. Blessings upon you, today and always.
Sunday September 11, 2016
Being
Imagining you
Standing before me
Oh the flood of emotion
Feeling the incredible joy / rapture
All the way down to the bottoms of my feet
My skin tingling
Expanding inward to eternity
As I stand here
Loving and filled with love
Seeing everyone I have ever known or met
Standing in a long line before me stretching from left to right
As far as the eye can see
There is the one I loved like a father
The one I wished well for, respected and would say hi to,
There is my good friend from childhood, my buds from high school,
The ones I loved dearly
Those I was hurt deeply by
Where pain still lingers or lies hidden.
One by one I stand before each of you
I look and I look and I look
Deeper and deeper and deeper
Until I see your Soul
Until time dissolves
And the moment becomes eternal
I imagine myself filled with such love
Such love for you
I imagine how that would feel
And then imagine feeling that feeling
Knowing that there are no limitations in imagining
That all things are possible when I imagine “being” or “having” or “being in the state of being”.
As I stand before
I say your name
As I gaze into your eyes
Allowing myself to remember you
And see all the beauty of you
Everything I ever admired you for
cherished
loved
was drawn to in you,
acknowledging all those things whatever they are or were
(be they good things or pain and trauma)
for through acknowledging
I can forgive myself and be healed of that which hides
and then I can imagine myself healed, being whole and complete
not because of anyone else
but because my true nature is that of love, and that is who I am, was and always will be
And so, precious one, as I stand before you
As I gaze into your eyes
I imagine so many things . . .
I imagine the feeling of being whole and complete
Without looking to you for me to feel that way about myself
I imagine being able to stand on my own and being able to stand before you
Imagining forgiving myself for who and how I am or was with you
And forgiving you for the pain and hurt I felt
And have carried for so long
I imagine a new state free of the need to carry that pain
That pain that was always part of my life, having become the “normal” state . . .
And as I look at you
The image of you that I created in my mind
Changes as my vision clears
And I see your Soul
As our Souls see each other
My Soul – perfect, whole and complete
Beholding your Soul – perfect, whole and complete
What more is there than that!
I see until there is no more
No more pain
No more separation
No need to pretend
Act strong
Be this or be that
Until there is nothing more
Than me
And you
And this big line of people
And it all swirls and flows and becomes one
And I am left with a gentle, sweet tenderness
For me, and you, and the long line of people
And the greater mass of humanity
Each one unique and precious.
Amen
Sunday September 11, 2016
Perfection
Two Things
Yesterday I learned two things
That brought tears to my eyes
As I saw the invisible
And released a bottom belief
The first was about the bond between us
Oh how beautiful
So extraordinarily beautiful is your Soul,
So vibrant,
Eternal.
I realised the depth of my love for you,
How I have always loved you.
The second was a core belief I carried hidden
deep inside my being
I saw how terrified I was
Of hurting those I love
Of allowing pain to overwhelm a vulnerable Soul
so fragile
so easily broken
seeing myself as someone who could protect
nurture
take care of and
shelter them
This being something
within my power to do.
So all encompassing
did this purpose become
Seeking any means I could
Lest a precious one be overwhelmed
And go the dark place
The place of no return
Lost forever
to me and to this world.
Finding anything better than that
even the slow destruction anger brings,
for at least anger keeps us safe from that place
that place we must never go
at any cost – the logic of the unconscious mind
Choosing a lesser evil
a sucker’s choice
Not realising win-win and mutual purpose
are always an option
And so the cycle continued
Until my Soul could bear its cross no longer
Yearning to be free from a path I had chosen
An ancient path I called my own
Awakening from the dream
of having been created to shelter others
from the pain of this world
I saw the great irony
of needing others to have pain to fulfil my purpose
Me then, an unconscious accomplice and participant
of an outcome serving no one
And such was my life
Until through a beloved servant
I was shown the light of Creator the true healer,
Whose work becomes possible once we are ready
once we open ourselves to it;
Learning what it feels like
to believe,
to trust
to truly love others
and see them as whole
capable
To watch them learn to spread their wings and fly
Cheering You can do it! And I believe in you!
Trusting Creator, trusting life, trusting them, trusting me.
Blessings upon you today and always.
Amen
Wed Jan 27, 2016 6 am
So who is this new God?
A God who can teach me
Without suffering
Without needing pain to teach lessons
A God who loves me
And is always there for me
A God who guides me
Speaks to me
That I can entrust my entire being to
Without holding anything back
Without feeling ashamed of any broken bits I may have
Free of the need to be perfect before coming forward
This is the God who waits to be found by me
This is the God who held me at the moment of my conception
Who holds me now
Will you teach and guide me
Speak to me and show me your truth
Take me as your servant for all eternity
Will you accept my gift
Will you love me and teach me to love others
Will you free all the words that are trapped inside me
From the time before I could speak and times I have been afraid to
Receiving yes to all these questions and the ones still unasked,
I allow my entire being to open
Standing before this God
I receive the call to raise my lowered head and eyes
Opening the windows of my soul
To behold and be beheld
Without fear
Without the need or desire to be something or someone else.
And from a pure heart
To love and bless others
To exist simply because I exist,
Without needing some niche,
Some thing I am good at to justify my existence
and why I am here
Standing before you
Breathing this air
Sharing our common humanity
I am alive!
I am here!
I feel life coursing through my veins
You
Precious you.
Here is my hand, for you to take
Here is my heart, for you to hold
There is no fear
Let us bless one another
As we embark on the road we have been given.
I allow the tears of gratitude to come
Gratitude for the blessing of the time we have shared
The richness that having known you has brought to my life
To the spark
The life force
That uniquely forms the collective tapestry
Of the wonder of creation.
May your road always be before you
May the Light of this existence radiate from your being
May you find meaning in every moment
May you be blessed.
Dedicated to every person who has ever lived on this earth, to those I have known and have yet to know, to those I have loved and hated, embraced or struggled against, despised and admired, held close or pushed away. In a twinkling of an eye my world has changed and everything in it. Blessed be.
Sunday January 24, 2016 8:30 am
God
God,
I made you in my own image
All that I resented in this world
All that I hated and despised
My struggles and fears and loss of innocence
That once gone I could never get back
I never knew how much I hated you for that
You, the God I created.
And then
Last night
I saw
I felt
I knew
There was something else
Something more
Something deeper
Something that I had not known before
A God not made by man or woman
A God of light
A God who could not be described by words, by human concepts
A God who could be known
But not in a way that human beings teach.
Lowering my guard, my defences
The God I had constructed
from years of study, practice, meditation
Became just that
Freeing me to allow that image to become
a picture on a wall in the museum of life
And something vaster
Something inexplicable
Began to emerge
And fill my being
Expanding from the centre of my creation
Outward in all directions.
Feeling the absence of the anger, regret and resentment
That was my life
Having been given
A new vision
A new world
Life in all its resounding splendor, honour and glory
Offered to me
To you
To everyone
To every One.
Amen.
Saturday, January 23, 2016. After the ThetaHealing Circle. Thank you Michelle, Hildegard, Patty and Isobel.
Getting beyond the Lynch Mob
I am great at telling stories inside my head
About why you act the way you do
At drawing conclusions about these “facts”
This indisputable evidence
Trying you in a kangaroo court
In which your reaction to being “hung out to dry”
Is used as validation of my judgement.
But I can step back
And see with true vision
The multifaceted swirling circles of truth
That dance around us.
Then all the illusions of the “fundamental attribution error” fall away
Leaving you and me
Who we truly are
Want we truly want
Our common purpose and respect for one another
I need to see you
At a level far deeper than the surface of the pond
To know what has caused the ripples
To allow all the forces acting upon you to be revealed
To shine the same loving light upon my own life
To understand why I act the way I do
To bring to consciousness all the hidden beliefs, commanding their release.
Freedom
The freedom to see through
To see past
To alter my vibrational state from the one we are taught
To that of here and now
To omniscience
To allowing the knowing, seeing, feeling
Accepting that it is possible
That it is safe and allowed
Permitting the closeness that comes through truly seeing someone,
The whole of them, to the deepest levels of their soul,
Their truest motivations
When all the cobwebs and clutter are brushed aside . . .
Oh how beautiful you are, I am
I bask in the sun-filled glow of this beauty
Of the knowledge of our true essence
Of Creator’s light and love
Made manifest in our human existence
Blessed be.
Amen.
Whose Life is it Anyway?
Sink or swim
You leave it up to us
But you know we will fail and fail again
Being human
Why don’t you save us?
Why do you make it so hard?
So much torment
So much suffering . . .
Giving us heroes like Robin Williams
Inspirations larger than life
Only to watch him take his own life
Why do you so punish humanity?
Leaving us to flounder
What do you say to me Creator?
Oh you who are both Mighty and Little,
Listen to me.
You want many things
You want Love and Meaning
You want to reach out your hands to divide the waters
To make dry land to walk across
You want to walk on water and be powerful as a God
You want to unlock all the mysteries of creation,
Including why you are here
You want to change everything that is not as it should be
In short, you want to be God, being made in God’s image
But you are impatient
And stubborn
You do not want to ask for help
You want to be allowed to make your own mistakes
To follow your own star
Without being told what to do or how to do it
You know that you will get there eventually
You were born with this knowing
And though your heart rages against me
You would have it no other way
For you are a free people
Free to choose bondage and suffering for yourselves.
But Creator why?
Why don’t you tell us / show us / send someone?
Help us see what we need to see
Heal us and take away our pain?
Isn’t that the role of the prophets you sent and keep sending?
Why then don’t we listen?
Why don’t we heed your voice?
My voice is the whole of Creation
I have shown you who I am and how to connect to me
To hear my voice
To listen to me
You have worked hard to clear the layers that separate us
And with every layer cleared I become closer to you
More real
More present
But don’t you have the power to make this easier?
For less suffering?
Feel my love
See my smile
Know that your world is the one that you have created
Your creation is not mine to change
You, being a God, have infinite power
Your world will not change until you decide to change it
That was the choice I made when I gave you the power
It is eternity that I see
This time is like that of an infant becoming a child and growing into a man or woman
You must learn to crawl before you walk and run
Is it bad to fall?
Of course not.
When a child falls
They learn to get back up again.
How else could they learn that?
If I told you that you were in school to become God
Would that change how you felt about this curriculum
that seems so hard?
Will you allow the faith and hope that comes from knowing
that everyone will graduate from this Godschool,
That no one will be left behind?
Do you see how linear time
Becomes the Eternal Now
In which past and future disappear
Along with the suffering they imbue
Would you like to know what it feels like to live without suffering, that it is safe to, that you are allowed to, that you deserve to?
Yes!
Would you like to know what it feels like to believe that we will all get there eventually?
Yes!
(I watch as Creator downloads these feelings, this knowing into me, into you, on every level, into every cell of our bodies, for our highest and best)
Oh Creator!
Thank you for speaking to me
For sharing your wisdom with me
Thank you for the beauty in people and in this world
Thank you for revealing the mystery of who and what I am.
Show me the role you would have me play
Fill me with joy and passion for life
With wonder and openness.
Let me walk the road that is before me
I see it now
It is straight and true
It has no beginning and no end
Being eternal
As you are
As I am
As we all are.
Amen
7 am Winterburne, Ontario. Dec. 23, 2015
10 minutes of ecstasy to change the world
I open myself Creator
To see
To feel
your loving smile
upon me
upon my face
to allow the emotion of it
to flow through my entire being
10 minutes of ecstasy to change the world
to change me
and my perception of who and what I am
allowing the altered state
to permeate into the core of my existence
letting me be me
and you be you
letting Creator be the one to save the world
having been released from the yoke of misunderstanding
freeing me to love and accept all that is
to sing
to praise
to worship
to open my arms
feeling Creator’s unconditional love flowing into every cell of my body
through me and to all that is
feeling my connection to Earth, so strong, so rooted
simultaneously flying through time and space
observing the invocation of Creator’s blessing
as one year ends and another begins
this is a time of love and oneness
of hope and reconciliation
a time to shed that which is obsolete
a time for rebirth
to rise from the ashes
to be holy
to emerge from slumber, from waiting
for metamorphosis, the next evolutionary leap
Blessings be upon you, all of you
Hear the words that Creator speaks to you in your heart
Blessed be.
Dec 16, 2015 6 am
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