Yesterday I learned two things
That brought tears to my eyes
As I saw the invisible
And released a bottom belief
The first was about the bond between us
Oh how beautiful
So extraordinarily beautiful is your Soul,
I realised the depth of my love for you,
How I have always loved you.
The second was a core belief I carried hidden
deep inside my being
I saw how terrified I was
Of hurting those I love
Of allowing pain to overwhelm a vulnerable Soul
so easily broken
seeing myself as someone who could protect
take care of and
This being something
within my power to do.
So all encompassing
did this purpose become
Seeking any means I could
Lest a precious one be overwhelmed
And go the dark place
The place of no return
to me and to this world.
Finding anything better than that
even the slow destruction anger brings,
for at least anger keeps us safe from that place
that place we must never go
at any cost – the logic of the unconscious mind
Choosing a lesser evil
a sucker’s choice
Not realising win-win and mutual purpose
are always an option
And so the cycle continued
Until my Soul could bear its cross no longer
Yearning to be free from a path I had chosen
An ancient path I called my own
Awakening from the dream
of having been created to shelter others
from the pain of this world
I saw the great irony
of needing others to have pain to fulfil my purpose
Me then, an unconscious accomplice and participant
of an outcome serving no one
And such was my life
Until through a beloved servant
I was shown the light of Creator the true healer,
Whose work becomes possible once we are ready
once we open ourselves to it;
Learning what it feels like
to truly love others
and see them as whole
To watch them learn to spread their wings and fly
Cheering You can do it! And I believe in you!
Trusting Creator, trusting life, trusting them, trusting me.
Blessings upon you today and always.
Wed Jan 27, 2016 6 am
I made you in my own image
All that I resented in this world
All that I hated and despised
My struggles and fears and loss of innocence
That once gone I could never get back
I never knew how much I hated you for that
You, the God I created.
There was something else
Something that I had not known before
A God not made by man or woman
A God of light
A God who could not be described by words, by human concepts
A God who could be known
But not in a way that human beings teach.
Lowering my guard, my defences
The God I had constructed
from years of study, practice, meditation
Became just that
Freeing me to allow that image to become
a picture on a wall in the museum of life
And something vaster
Began to emerge
And fill my being
Expanding from the centre of my creation
Outward in all directions.
Feeling the absence of the anger, regret and resentment
That was my life
Having been given
A new vision
A new world
Life in all its resounding splendor, honour and glory
Offered to me
To every One.
Saturday, January 23, 2016. After the ThetaHealing Circle. Thank you Michelle, Hildegard, Patty and Isobel.
I open myself Creator
your loving smile
upon my face
to allow the emotion of it
to flow through my entire being
10 minutes of ecstasy to change the world
to change me
and my perception of who and what I am
allowing the altered state
to permeate into the core of my existence
letting me be me
and you be you
letting Creator be the one to save the world
having been released from the yoke of misunderstanding
freeing me to love and accept all that is
to open my arms
feeling Creator’s unconditional love flowing into every cell of my body
through me and to all that is
feeling my connection to Earth, so strong, so rooted
simultaneously flying through time and space
observing the invocation of Creator’s blessing
as one year ends and another begins
this is a time of love and oneness
of hope and reconciliation
a time to shed that which is obsolete
a time for rebirth
to rise from the ashes
to be holy
to emerge from slumber, from waiting
for metamorphosis, the next evolutionary leap
Blessings be upon you, all of you
Hear the words that Creator speaks to you in your heart
Dec 16, 2015 6 am
How quick I have become
at writing you off
all those parts of my life
I decide no longer fit
with who and what I am.
But what if this wasn’t right
What if I was only hiding from myself
Conforming to a false god
A false image of humanity . . .
Hardening my heart for nothing?
What if the rejection judgement
Was only a weak substitute for Wisdom
Wisdom, who stands side by side with Compassion.
When I behold my life with Wisdom and Compassion
There is no judgement
And nothing to reject
Nothing and no one to leave behind
Nothing to refrain from doing
Who I am becomes much deeper
There is nothing to hide
There is just me and you
and the other billions of people on the planet
and the whole of the rest of Creation
Wakefield, 5: 30 am, Tuesday, May 20th, 2015
Creator of all that is, it is commanded that all the lost bits and pieces of my Soul, from all generations of time and eternity and between time, be sought, found and released from where they are, and cleansed and returned to me.
Oh, how I have missed you, oh, how I welcome you home with all my heart, soul and mind. Be well. Welcome! Let us rejoice and make merry! It is a time for celebration, rejoicing, bursting with joy. You are home!
And wherever in me be there bits and pieces of the souls of others or any other part of Creation, however, whenever or why ever you came to me, it is commanded that you be released from me, cleansed with Creator’s light, and be returned with unconditional love and compassion, to be a gift of healing, of reverence, to enrich and bless your life.
May you be filled with loving kindness
May you be well
May you be peaceful and at ease
May you be happy
Here ends the lesson. Thanks be to the Creator.