Being

Imagining you
Standing before me
Oh the flood of emotion
Feeling the incredible joy / rapture
All the way down to the bottoms of my feet
My skin tingling
Expanding inward to eternity
As I stand here
Loving and filled with love
Seeing everyone I have ever known or met
Standing in a long line before me stretching from left to right
As far as the eye can see
There is the one I loved like a father
The one I wished well for, respected and would say hi to,
There is my good friend from childhood, my buds from high school,
The ones I loved dearly
Those I was hurt deeply by
Where pain still lingers or lies hidden.

One by one I stand before each of you
I look and I look and I look
Deeper and deeper and deeper
Until I see your Soul
Until time dissolves
And the moment becomes eternal
I imagine myself filled with such love
Such love for you
I imagine how that would feel
And then imagine feeling that feeling
Knowing that there are no limitations in imagining
That all things are possible when I imagine “being” or “having” or “being in the state of being”.

As I stand before
I say your name
As I gaze into your eyes
Allowing myself to remember you
And see all the beauty of you
Everything I ever admired you for
cherished
loved
was drawn to in you,
acknowledging all those things whatever they are or were
(be they good things or pain and trauma)
for through acknowledging
I can forgive myself and be healed of that which hides
and then I can imagine myself healed, being whole and complete
not because of anyone else
but because my true nature is that of love, and that is who I am, was and always will be
And so, precious one, as I stand before you
As I gaze into your eyes
I imagine so many things . . .
I imagine the feeling of being whole and complete
Without looking to you for me to feel that way about myself
I imagine being able to stand on my own and being able to stand before you
Imagining forgiving myself for who and how I am or was with you
And forgiving you for the pain and hurt I felt
And have carried for so long
I imagine a new state free of the need to carry that pain
That pain that was always part of my life, having become the “normal” state  . . .
And as I look at you
The image of you that I created in my mind
Changes as my vision clears
And I see your Soul
As our Souls see each other
My Soul – perfect, whole and complete
Beholding your Soul – perfect, whole and complete
What more is there than that!
I see until there is no more
No more pain
No more separation
No need to pretend
Act strong
Be this or be that
Until there is nothing more
Than me
And you
And this big line of people
And it all swirls and flows and becomes one
And I am left with a gentle, sweet tenderness
For me, and you, and the long line of people
And the greater mass of humanity
Each one unique and precious.

Amen

Sunday September 11, 2016

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